Why I never smiled

      I have always had spaced out teeth. It got worse when I started sucking my tongue; I started sucking because all 3 of my siblings were so I did follow follow ( I still suck my tongue sometimes #noshameinmygame lol). The more I sucked the further my teeth got pushed out. When I was about eight years old, I started sticking little beads in my gapped front tooth because I heard gapped tooth was the "cool" thing on the block & that increased the space in my two front tooth. To make matters worse I was born with a two toned (brown&white) colored teeth due to my mom using a lot of antibiotics when she was pregnant with me. When all my teeth fell out it still grew out two toned. I also used a lot of antibiotics as a child so that definitely contributed to my colored teeth.

What is a smile please? lmao!

      Growing up my spaced teeth never bothered me, what bothered me the most was the color of my teeth. Kids made so much fun of me and nicknamed me chocolate teeth *tears*. I did everything to get rid of the color.I was only a child, I never fully understood that you can't wish away your natural teeth color. It is almost like being born albino and wondering why you are not like the other kids. My mom took me to the dentist after she caught me brushing my teeth with grounded ceramic plates (oh you guessed right my gums were looking like shit & I bleed like crazy!). This dental visit changed everything.I truly started understanding that this is the real color of my teeth and no amount of sand paper or prayers can change it. My dentist also explained to my mom & I that I can only have white teeth if I do a coat on my teeth. I can't get this white coat until I turn 21. Bummer!!!


       My 10 years old self took all this new information in and went on not smiling in pictures for another 3 years. I honestly do not think I have any childhood pictures where you will see my teeth. I can't remember exactly why I decided enough is enough and I started smiling in pictures. The best recollection of my smiling story was when my oldest sister Lola took a picture of me and I was looking very mad in it. She looked at me and said something along the lines of "you will probably look better if you smile". Next picture we took I gave it a shot & I guess I liked it since I stayed smiling.

 
                                                      Two toned or not I am cheesing

      I was a very confident child except when you mention my teeth. Elementary and middle school was a bit rough because of that. Junior high came around and peoples opinion of my teeth did not bother me a lot. I can't even really remember anyone teasing me about it at this period in life. I am currently in my early 20's and I still have my two toned teeth which I have grown to really love. Although I have to say the color of my teeth has significantly improved from what it was years ago. As a child I did not brush very well because  my gums hurt all the time and that led to a way darker shade of brown than what I currently have. I honestly feel like my teeth  sets me apart from everybody else amongst my other qualities. Will I get that white coat at some point in life? I seriously doubt it. Things got switched around the older I got. I don't care about the color of my teeth anymore but I care a tiny little bit about the spacing. I recently got braces and in subsequent posts I'll be blogging about everything you need to know about getting braces & the main reason why I decided to get braces.

6 comments

  1. Cheesing looks good on you. I had a great big overbite when I was younger and braces saved my smile 🙌

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    1. Aw thanks :) I should have gotten braces a long time ago but I couldn't afford it and my insurance did not cover it because it wasn't causing me any medical discomfort -___-

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  2. Hi Folake,

    I enjoyed reading this post as I can relate with it.

    When I was younger, I wasn't too happy with my smile. Thankfully, it was changeable. I wore braces for a few years and it was well worth it.

    I've learned that happiness comes from accepting bits of ourselves that we are powerless to change and having the courage to change the things we can. :-)

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    1. I am glad you enjoyed the post :) I am going to have my braces for just 12 months. Thank God I don't have to have it for years.I already see changes so I am sure it will be worth it. I agree with you! There is no greater happiness than accepting and loving yourself.

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  3. This was the exact reason I seldom smiled in photos. I can't even be bothered anymore. I also noticed that some other things that made me insecure as a child, I don't care about them anymore. Like my legs, my skinny self etc. I actually LOVE my body now and wouldn't want it any other way. I guess growing up does that. Oh, Folake, I found your blog and I loveeee it. Hahaha. You've found yourself a regular visitor :-p Hopefully you don't get tired of me hehe

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    1. Oh what growing up would do for you! New insecurities would start to build but you will definitely handle it in a better way. I am glad you love my blog & yay to regular visitor. Don't worry I won't get tired of you :)

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